So your website is a precious resource and a wonderful place to share experiences, stories, tips and tricks among people who share the same problem. It is such a relief for me, and I think for all your readers, to see that I am not alone and that there is a way to feel more comfortable with my body and weight.
I liked your website so much that I would like to share my story with you and all the other readers, if you would like to publish it on the blog. This is something very meaningful for me: in all my life I think I shared this kind of thoughts with maybe two or three people, and it was always a great demonstration of trust. My story is just difficult to understand and accept, but I believe that the ExtraSmallMe community is the right reader for it.

Suffering from anorexia

Probably my situation is a little bit different from yours. While most of you fought against the stereotype "skinny=anorexic", I actually suffered of anorexia, and admitting it now is still painful and difficult. Now I am 20. When I was around 14, I weighed around 50 kilo. I was training as a ballerina, and so I was in an environment where skinny physical appearence was really important. I can't say at all that I became anorexic because of ballet. Anyway, more or less at that time I started to have problems with the food. When I was 16, I weighed less than 40 kg. I was suffering more psychologically than physically, still I was quite a serious case.

I started hating myself for being unable to gain weight

I don't know when I went out of anorexia, it was a very long process. In any case, in the last two years I went through several diets to gain weight, and they were absolutely stressful and ineffective. It was so frustrating to see that even if I wanted to gain weight and I did everything the doctors told me, my body just remained the same. I started hating myself for being unable to gain weight.

Whatever I do, my weight will always remain 40 kilos

Now everything changed again. I live by myself and I cook by myself. I came to the conclusion that whatever I do -  my weight will always remain 40 kg. I have perfect blood analysis, I am fit and I work out regularly. I feel well. I am no more on a diet, I eat wherever I like whenever I like, including tons of chocolates and nuts. I finally feel free from every type of food restriction or rule (to gain or lose weight).

The hardest thing is that I feel I can't be attractive for boys

When I was 14 ,I hated my "normal" body appearance. Now, I don't like my skinny appearance at all. I am 160cm tall, I am proportionate but absolutely "petite". It is practically impossible to find jeans that fit me and sometimes also the smallest leggings are too big for me. The hardest thing is that I feel I can't be attractive for boys. I have a very small breasts (still existing), zero bottom and no curves at all. I can't say I look like a boy, I look like a small girl. This is something quite hard to deal with.

"I am sure people can see the beauty in me even if I don't have big boobs"

Still, I think I have to accept my body and start liking myself for what I am. I am sure people can see the beauty in me even if I don't have big boobs. I hope one day I will finally feel comfortable with my appearance, and it will be also thanks to ExtraSmallMe and to meeting other people in my same situation.
Thank you, thank you, thank you for this incredible website. Thank you for saying that we are beautiful.
All the best,
Viola